their was another thread,I posted about a gal,yet their were many.
ya see,I'm A junkie.my road has been one of putrid insolence.that folks had for me as a little boy,A 'lil tyke,who grew up to exude that poor feature or quality.
I had been through so much,yet never once have I worn A mask.I have hid behind no one.when asked A question,99% of the time I gave you the truth.and when I did not,it was for fear to an extent of doin life in prison.
their were so many beautiful women,I never suffered a shortage or dry spell.when I was young,with long blonde hair,that surfer physique,the fighters body from alot of training.
God gave me something,in as much as he kept me alive,knowing that some day I would carry the torch of change,he gave me this ability to survive so much better than others fared.
i come from A place and lifetime of alot of other junkies,I'd always had A real physical job,always.
work and heat,and hard times,I perservered better than others.they would become frail and weak.I grew tougher and stronger.
always did I hang out at my moms club,A topless club.and the girls swooned.for me as a man,today I'd wished they hadn't.
in my nature as A man,the perversity that many of us cycle into,and the ease with which they came.
I was an animal,I broke hearts,I turned them into monsters, of their own demonic being.I taught them bad details with which to enact.
damaged goods,it's what i was before I was 14,it was not hard to laden that upon others.to destroy the beauty of so many,and not feel,what was it to feel anyways?
to have compassion? for what?for whom do you do that when you have nothing in your inbox?
So today,for all those whom I've harmed,could you be my blue eyes,I do not wish you to be my valentine.love those who have saved you from the point with which your pain was left to when I threw you away.
forgive me my trespasses.know today,I have done something to be there for others that treat your fellow man in that disgraceful way.
do not allow that I should be excused, only that I make my amends.
from a junkie,consumed with his disease,to an addict that recovers,whis to regain,and for that their is constancy in my life,that I walk A different path.
today I give back so freely,what was given to me.
I hope you recover my sweet blue eyes.